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2008-09-29 18:11:02

Dedicated to my one and only Shelley. I love you, and always will.

I'm here without you baby,
but you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby,
but you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, it's only you and me

~3 Doors Down - Here Without You

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2008-07-01 21:29:10

So I can't possible contain my excitement about heading out west in 2 days. It will be nice to take another trip, and to forget about work for a while, assuming that I get everything done that needs done in the next 2 days. With my boss being gone, and a number of projects due, I'm working hard to get it all done before I leave on Thursday, that way I can leave everything at the office when I go. Anyway, for the moment, I suppose that's about all.

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2008-06-23 22:59:26

Alright, so I know this is long over due (yeah yeah, so what's new) but lots happened since my last real post. So I suppose I need to find a good starting point.
Well, I suppose the best place to start would be (the lack of) Laura. But I won't go into that....not here, not now (ok, so really just not now....I likely will at a later date).
My job's been going really well, and I continue to love it. I have a very good performance review and a bit of a raise so I'm very happy about that. Our annual meeting went quite well also so I was very happy about that.
Oh, and I'm taking a small trip here over the 4th of July (and the following week). My dad and I are taking another one of our road trips and heading to the Dakotas and that area. We are going to try to hit a bunch of national parks and such.
And of course....in true um....stylish (or something like that) fashion, I have saved the best for last.....

I....Daniel Stephen Bunyard....have found the one with whom, I know beyond the shadow of a doubt, I want to spend the rest of my life with. I have experienced joys beyond joy, happiness unimaginable....un-comprehensible, a true, deep, and uncontrollable desire to be with someone. The type of feeling that you only read about, and even then don't believe it to be anything more than a work of fiction. Something that's impossible to put into any know words, impossible to even truly understand. My dear Shelley, the word love alone will never be able to truly express how much I care for you....never actually convey the feelings I have....the desire. I have fallen completely in love, completely entrenched in this feeling so deep that I shan't ever get out, nor would I ever want to. To be totally honest....I have no idea, nor do I even believe it possible, to express what I feel.
So this I say, to the one I love, I am yours, my dear Shelley, until the end of time. I love you with all that I am, and shall ever be. You are my one, true love, now....and forever.

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2008-04-29

I suppose I should post a real entry rather than another set of lyrics, but meh.
Also, I'm usually not a bit Cake fan, but it's a good song.

No trophy, no flowers, no flashbulbs, no wine,
He's haunted by something he cannot define.
Bowel-shaking earthquakes of doubt and remorse,
Assail him, impale him with monster-truck force.
In his mind, he's still driving, still making the grade.
She's hoping in time that her memories will fade.
Cause he's racing and pacing and plotting the course,
He's fighting and biting and riding on his horse.
The sun has gone down and the moon has come up,
And long ago somebody left with the cup.
But he's striving and driving and hugging the turns.
And thinking of someone for whom he still burns.

~Cake - The Distance

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2008-04-11

Hey now don't make a sound
Say have you heard the news today?
One flag was taken down
To raise another in it's place

A heavy cross you bear
A stubborn heart remains unchanged
No home, no life, no love
No stranger singing in your name

Maybe the season
The colors change in the valley skies
Dear God I've sealed my fate
Running through hell
Heaven can wait

Long road to ruin
There in your eyes
Under the cold streetlights
No tomorrow
No dead-end in sight

Let's say we take this town
No king or queen of any state
Get up to shut it down
Open the streets and raise the gates

I know a wall to scale
I know a field without a name
Head on without a care
Before it's way too late

Maybe the season
The colors change in the valley skies
Oh God I've sealed my fate
Running through hell
Heaven can wait

Long road to ruin
There in your eyes
Under the cold streetlights
No tomorrow
No dead-end

Long road to ruin
There in your eyes
Under the cold streetlights
No tomorrow
No dead-end in sight

For every piece to fall in place
Forever gone without a trace
Your horizon takes its shape
No turning back, don't turn that page

Come now, I'm leaving here tonight
Come now, let's leave it all behind
Is that the price you pay
Running through hell
Heaven can wait

Long road to ruin
There in your eyes
Under the cold streetlights
No tomorrow
No dead ends

Long road to ruin
There in your eyes
Under the cold streetlights
No tomorrow
No dead ends

Long road to ruin
There in your eyes
Under the cold streetlights
No tomorrow
No dead end in sight
~Foo Fighters - Long Road To Ruin

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2008-01-27 16:07

It taken me 4 days to actually do this, but here it is!
Alright, now where to begin, much has happened since my last post.....
Well since it happened shortly after my last post, I suppose my raise would be a good starting point. I received a very nice raise at work. It's nice to hear a "good job" but when it's actually shown through something like a raise, it means so much more!!
I guess the next logical place to go would be me and Laura. Well, to put it simply, we love each other, more then anything, and well, words cannot express how much I care for her. To say the very least, Laura is the best thing that's ever happened to me, by a massive long shot. I truly love her more then anything, or anyone!!!
I have also moved into a new place! It's a nice little condo just a very short distance north of where I used to live. I love it so much more then my last place, and it's much nicer! See for yourself here: http://picasaweb.google.com/Danodemano/ApartmentTour1172008!!
I am also taking one class at Columbus State this quarter to try to finish out my associates degree. After this, I only have one class left!
I suppose that's about all the major events, of course I've been working on some web design, for my site, Gothdragon, and a handful of other sites.

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2007-12-10 19:00

I did something today that I haven't done in some time....I sat down and reflected for a short while on my life

I've always had the philosophy that you should live life without regrets, but no matter how hard I try to do that....I find it impossible. It seems that as I look back I just get upset at everything I've messed up in my life. All the mistakes, all the failures, everything I've not done and should have, the things I should have never even though of doing, just everything. Just thinking about everything I've messed up, makes it hard for me to even type. I guess without a past to look back upon, you can't see what needs changed for the future.

But looking back, especially now, is quite difficult. It hurts to see all the places in my life that I've fallen short of everyone's expectations, even my own. I seem to be able to offer advice to friends but forsake my own knowledge. I guess it seems as though I can tell other what to do but when it comes to my own life, I don't have a clue.

I guess I really want to offer up two things. The first is an apology, to everyone. You all have expectations of me and I realize that on many occasions, I've fallen short of them. I've always tried to put myself last and everyone else first but it doesn't always work that way, and sometimes I just act without really thinking about how it affects other, especially those close to me. So to everyone.....I'm sorry. I can't promise that it won't happen again, but I will surly try harder.

Second, I would like to thank a few people. People that, despite all my mistakes, have always been there for me and have helped me along the way.
- First, I would like to thank Justin. I know you probably don't know it, and I would never tell you to your face, but you've had quite a large impact on my life. Just some of the little things you've done and said, have really made me think and have changed the way I live.
- Second, every that I work with, especially Doug and Shaun, I think of you as family. You guys are always there and offering a joke or story or something else that always seems to change my mood.
- Third, Laura, I know that I haven't always been the best boyfriend but just thinking about you can instantly change me mood and my feelings towards the world. I owe you more then I could ever repay, and certainly more then you will ever know. Hun, I love you.
- Forth, to anyone that I've failed to mention here, you know who you are. All the people that have, throughout my life, been there to help, guide, and care for me. To everyone that believed in me, even when I didn't believe in myself. I couldn't possibly list, nor repay, every one of you. But you shall forever have my gratitude and respect.
- And last, but certainly not least, my parents. I only hope that when I'm a father, I could be even half the parent that they are. I most certainly don't tell them this enough, but I love them and couldn't possible ask for better parents. I know that sometimes I get upset with them, but they do, and will always have my utmost respect and love.

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2007-11-05 13:37

I heard this song today....and it just hit me, really hard:
There I was ten years old
waitin' in my room for him to come home
and I just knew he'd be so mad
though I begged my mother not to, she told my dad.
There was no denyin' I let him down
but instead of being angry
he put his arms around me and said

in the sunlight or the rain brightest nights or darkest days
I'll always feel the same way
whatever road you may be on
know you're never too far gone my love is there wherever you may be
just remember that you'll always be my baby.

There I was twenty-one
oh I was so ashamed of what I'd done
on a country road
parked one night
what started out so innocent
crossed the line
there was no denyin'
I let God down
but instead of being angry
he let his love surround me and I heard

in the sunlight or the rain brightest nights or darkest days
I'll always feel the same way
whatever road you may be on
know you're never too far gone
my love is there wherever you may be
just remember that you'll always be my baby yeah yeah.

There he is my little man
I'm sure he'll get in trouble every now and then
and I pray to God that when he does
I'll be just as understanding
as my father was 'cause the last thing that I want to do is let him down
so instead of being angry
I'm gonna throw my arms around him and I'll say

in the sunlight or the rain brightest nights or darkest days
I'll always feel the same way yeah whatever road you may be on
know you're never too far gone
my love is there wherever you may be
just remember that you'll always be my baby
be my baby
~Sara Evans - You'll Always Be My Baby

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