Nearly 4 years…and all it takes is a random post on an internet forum

Rainbow Bridge
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together….
Author unknown…

I miss your Otter.

Otter 1991 – 2009

The day I thought would never come….has. My cat that I’ve known nearly all my life is now gone.  I thought I would be alright….I was wrong.  I feel like a part of me is gone and never coming back.  He’s had a good life though, some 18 years which is extraordinary for a cat, that doesn’t make it any easier though.  If anything, it makes it ever harder.  Words cannot, and will not ever be able to express the grief that I feel.  He was one of….probably my very best friend.  I think back to all the fun we used to have.  All the crazy things he used to do.  I think about his crazy moods and hiding under the rug.  About his love of climbing into things, boxes, bags, our giant glass jar.  I think about the time he set at the table and looked like he was ready for dinner.  I think about him curling up in my lap for a long nap.  I think about the abuse he took from me….the time I dropped him down the stairs, the time I put a clothespin on his tail.  I suppose I wanted him to live forever….and thought that he would.  I thought that he would always be around.  What small comfort is in the fact that I got to say goodbye….and that he didn’t suffer.  Though really, those seem like very small comforts.  I just hope he know how much I loved him.  Rest in peace my dear friend.  I will never forget about you.  You will always hold a very special place in my heart.

Otter Bunyard 1991 to 2009:






All jumbled up….

So it seems like I have been starting, but not finishing, a number of entries both for here and my journal on my site.  I have decided (for better or worse) that I will at least post what I have written.  None of these are completed, nor will they be.  It was just me starting things at random points in time but never finishing them.  So here you are:

So I’m in kinda a weird Dan mood right now.  I don’t really know how to describe it, or really what it is, it’s just weird.  It’s not happy or sad…..mad or calm….just weird.  I don’t really know what else to say, so I suppose that this won’t be real long.  I just wanted to post at least something.


10-22-2008 – A note for my Shelley
I thought that perhaps I would start out my posting here with a “small” note to my dear Shelley.  Alright, so it won’t be small, but still.

After what can only be described as yet another wonderful weekend, I still continue to fall more and more in love with her.  It would be hard to describe the weekend as perfect, but arguably any time spent with her is perfect.  If you want to read all the details, you can check out our joint blog Dan and Shelley.

But anyway, back on track here.  Shelley, my dear Shelley, I love you.  I know that those words don’t even begin to convey what I feel for you, but they are the best that I have found so far.  Just when I think that I can’t possibly love you any more, I am proven wrong.  Simply thinking about you makes me fall deeper and deeper in love with you.  I cherish every moment that we spend together, and long for when we shall meet again.


01-07-2009 – A new year, new love, a clean slate….
So this is a hard post for me to make.  I have made many a painful posts before in my journal in the past but it never gets any easier.  I know that this post is WAY overdue but as I always say, better late than never…..

So for those who don’t know, I am now dating the most wonderful woman in the world.  Her name is Shelley and I can not even begin to describe my feelings for her.  We have been together some 9ish months at this point and I can honestly say that I have never been happier in my life.  I suppose, that along with this, I should at least mention my ex.  She who shall not be named is, last I knew, living with a “friend” in MO.  I’m not going to go into details but calling her a bitch would be a compliment I do believe.  I truly hate looking down on people like that but honestly I don’t know what else to say.

The final thing I should probably note is my job.  I love me job, I really do.  I am never doing the same thing for days on end, I get to work with some cutting edge technology, and I my opinion is respected and always heard if I have something that needs said.  We had training today for our new phone system and while I really don’t enjoy meetings, I know that it’s something I have to do sometimes.  We have been working VERY hard to get things ready for this new system along with some other major projects.  Honestly, I really do enjoy working hard, the end result ALWAYS makes it worth while.

Anyway, moving right along.  I am, at this point, coming up upon the 2nd anniversary of my accident.  I can’t honestly believe that it’s been that long but it has.  I try not to think about it….try to push it from my mind but I never strays far.  It’s something that hangs over my head day in and day out.  Very rarely does a day go by that I still don’t think about it.  My friends know that I am talking about, for those who don’t, I’m not planning to go into it here.

Well back to Shelley.  The short of it is that I love her.  Not in a love that can be defined, explained, or expressed.  I love her so deeply I don’t even fully understand it.  So much that no matter how hard I try I will never be able to describe it.  I have spent countless hours….countless sleepless nights trying to put into words what I feel.  I have concluded that it’s really just not possible.  I can not, and will not, ever be able to describe it.


So that’s it, what I have half-written over the past 8 months.  Maybe some of it’s interesting, but most likely not.  Enjoy!